Trapped in Gray

In this life, there are always exist two points in an opposite words. Big >< Little. Beauty >< Ugly. Like >< Dislike. Love >< Hate. Smart >< Stupid, etc. Ya! So many. And this what I feel, trapped in the middle of two words, black and white. Hahaha. I know, in the middle of that words, there is gray. But you also must know, that gray one sometimes does not exist like people said. Just trapped. And confused. I feel like fall in the deep hole no land for landing, just like Spy Kids movie, when the kids fall into a hole and no stop for long time. Hahaha. But, in that movie, that's so funny. In my own movie? NO. Never ever can be funny. Dark makes scared. Unlanded makes sad. And uncertainly time makes HELL! God, please lemme finnish what I've started (even I do not know when). But ya, this is all about friends, my friends, her friends, and my (fake) friends. Sigh. I do not know. Like what I've shared in my twitter account, "Back to the first point of life, no one can really be trusted. Except.... God. Thanks." (@fadilamh) Hahaha. Showed what I do really feel and I do not know to stop what my feeling did. Arrghhh!

Regards,

FMH

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♥ breaker!

Hahaha. Get what I mean there? No?!! Huh. Maybe because you're not one of my victims. Sounds bad yeah. Yeah! I do not know. This is what I feel in this recent weeks. Being a heartbreaker. The reason? I also do not know, really. Karma? Well ya, I do believe karma does exist. But God, You're the only One who knows what I really feel deep down inside my heart that combined with mind, I trust You and please trust me God, I'm just on my way finding the one and the only, beside You in my life. No no no do not worry God, You always still be my Best as always as I breath every time I have from you.

Backsound: Heartbreakers - NeYo =))

Love,

Heartbreaker

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Poison

Here I am, night, room, rain, cold and smile.

Miss Invisible - Taylor Swift is on playing.

Harusnya biasa saja ketika membaca tulisan cinta mendayu-dayu yang bukan buat lo. Toh bukan buat lo ini.
Harusnya sekalipun terenyuh, maka terenyuh haru akan rasa yang luar biasa. Toh bukan buat lo ini.
Harusnya tak tertunduk diam kemudian terus membacanya ketika tahu itu bukan buat lo. Toh itu jelas sekali bukan untukmu, Fadila.
Harusnya senyum dan bangga pernah hadir di hidup si penulis, pernah merasakan yang namanya dafuq cinta. Hell yah. Tapi tetap, 'TOH ITU MEMANG BUKAN BUAT LO!'

Cinta itu berubah sesuka hati, Fadila. Kapan pun, dimana pun, siapa pun, bisa dihampirinya setiap saat.
Cinta itu tidak mengenal pertanyaan mengapa, Fadila. Mereka tak punya jawabannya.
Cinta itu bisa mempermainkan, Fadila. Mereka pergi ketika kau percaya.
Cinta itu tak mengenal lelah, Fadila. Ya! Tak kenal lelah untuk terus membuatmu bagai layangan.
Cinta itu adalah hal yang........................................

Entahlah! Jawab sesuka hatimu! Kemudian renungkan.
Benarkah? Kemudian lepaskan.
Biarkan lepas. Toh mereka akan selalu datang di saat kau tak membutuhkannya.
Biarkan terbang. Toh mereka tak mengenal lelah untuk menggodamu.
Biarkan saja.........................................

Terimalah cinta, ketika kau tahu apa yang harus kau perbuat dengan cinta.
Terimalah cinta, ketika kau siap. Siap dengan semua tipu daya menghanyutkannya.
Kemudian...........................................

Jagalah. Pelihara dengan baik.
Bersiaplah. Jatuh bangun akan kau rasakan.

Maka ketika cinta datang, kemudian pergi.
Tersenyumlah dan jangan kau sesali.
Karena sebenarnya kau belum tahu dan siap untuk menerimanya.

Regards,

FMH

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