If You're Not The One, then?

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings 
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know life so far away 
But I know that its just a trip
We'll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I'Ve build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms? 


n.b. Dear Daniel Bedingfield, thanks for singing this song :)

Regards,

FMH

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I've got the new one!

The Corrs - What Can I Do lyrics

I haven't slept at all in days

It's been so long since we've talked

And I have been here many times

I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take

And I just got to let it go

And who knows I might feel better

If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there

No more waiting, No more aching

No more fighting, No more trying

Maybe there's nothing more to say

And in a funny way I'm calm

Because the power is not mine

I'm just gonna let it fly

What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there

Love me..

Just Dreams Like Usual

Like what I've said before "I'm glad cause I always can smile every morning when I open my eyes!"

Yap I am very proud of my self. Why ? Because now I can reach my self again. Without another people. Just me and my self. One thing that I really want now is June, 28th 2010. Because at that time I can get alive with the new one. Right ?

You know in Jakarta too much pressures, too much untouchable things, too much unuseful things, too much problems, too much old things and I really want to escape all of 'that' things. What we called 'Memory'. Oh God, thingking about that memory again makes me hopeless. Well, this is not me, I never hopeless, but for this time, I wanna be 'that' someone, the fragile one. Ya ya ya I know, this is not the first time I complain about living in Jakarta. Actually, the first reason is I am going to leave this city, that's why I make many complains to show my pleasure because of a chance to get a new life in Bogor.

Last night, so difficult for me to close my eyes, almost 5 times I opened my eyes and found the blank image of my dream, I tried to close my eyes again and nothing that I can get, that blank image, big white whole that combine all of old memories in my life. "Ah so last year!". First statement that I could say at that time and tried to close my eyes hardly. Oh God really please gives a miracle for me to get a better night with a better dream than all of my nights before. Then, I close my eyes again. You know what happen ? I've got the best dream (I think). It feels really real for me. I can touch and give a big hug for someone. OMG! that's only a dream. And now, something that I must do and prepare is take care of my self in every cases, because I can't read what will happen for me.

By the way, I do really like Sherina's song, Pergilah Kau. So simple, touchable and now really reachable.

Tak mau lagi aku percaya
Pada semua kasih sayangmu
Tak mau lagi aku tersentuh
Pada semua pengakuanmu
#
Kamu takkan mengerti rasa sakit ini
Kebohongan dari mulut manismu
Reff:
Pergilah kau
Pergi dari hidupku
Bawalah semua rasa bersalahmu
Pergilah kau
Pergi dari hidupku
Bawalah rahasiamu yang tak ingin kutahui
Tak mau lagi aku terjerat
Pada semua janji-janjimu
Tak mau lagi aku terkait
Pada semua permainanmu
Back to #, Reff
Bertahun-tahun bersama
Kupercayaimu
Kubanggakan kamu
Berikan s’galanya
Aku tak mau lagi
Ku tak mau lagi huoo… Yeee…Hee…
Back to Reff
Pergilah kau
Tak ingin kutahui
Pergilah kau
Ku tahui

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FADILA! (Aku Rindu)

Sang surya tlah berlabuh
Dingin gelap temani malam
Gemerlap bintang berpacu
Ku teringat bayang diri mu

Hu hu

Kepada siapa ku kan mengadu
Tuk tuturkan hasrat rindu
Duhai malam gelap yang menghampa
Hadirkan untuk ku dirinya

Dalam gelap teringat wajah mu

Aku rindu
Dimana dirimu
Mungkin kau rasakan
Aku rindu

Mungkinkah malam ini kau ingat aku?
Ada getaran tuk yakin kan itu
Seolah tiada lagi esok lusa
Yang mampu menahan amarah rinduku

Dalam gelap ku panggil nama mu

(Aku Rindu-Marcell)

Soundtrack of the day !

Tompi - Tak Pernah Setengah Hati 

tak pernah setengah hati
ku mencintaimuku memiliki dirimu
setulus-tulusnya jiwa
ku serahkan semua hanya untukmu

tak pernah aku niati untuk melukaimu
atau meninggalkan dirimu
sesal ku selalu bila tak sengaja
aku buat kau menangis

reff:
memiliki mencintai dirimu kasihku
tak akan pernah membuat diriku menyesal
sungguh matiku
hidupku 'kan selalu membutuhkan kamu

n.b. If there is someone out there waiting for me, let me say "I always give all of my time to think about you and you know, at this time I'm still be missing you because you always be a part of me and no one can change it, like it or not all I do, I do it for you, just for you"

(I took this picture actually for our 8th month anniversary, tapi lupa mulu mau di post in nya hehe)

Anyway, my friend said "kalian ini lucu deh berdua, 2 2 nya sayang tapi ga ketemu" hahahaha and I said "emang belom waktunya kali Din, maybe one day"

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Soundtrack of the Day !

You'll be in My Heart-Phil Collins

Come stop your crying, it will be all right
Just take my hand, hold it tight
I will protect you from all around you
I will be here dont you cry


For one so small,you seem so strong
My arms will hold you keep you safe and warm
This bond between us cant be broken
I will be here dont you cry


And youll be in my heart
Yes, youll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
Youll be in my heart
No matter what they say
Youll be here in my heart
Always


Why cant they understand the way we feel
They just dont trust what they cant explain
I know were different but deep inside us
Were not that different at all


And youll be in my heart
Yes, youll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
Youll be in my heart
No matter what they say
Youll be here in my heart
Always


Dont listen to them, cause what do they know
We need each other, to have and to hold
Theyll see in time, I know


When destiny calls you, you must be strong
I may not be with you, but you gotta hold on
Theyll see in time, I know


Well show them together cuz...


Youll be in my heart
I believe, youll be in my heart
Ill be there from this day on
Now and forever more


Youll be in my heart
No matter what they say
Youll be here in my heart always


Always...
Ill be with you
Ill be there for you always


Always and always
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
Ill be there always

nb : This song is always making me smile when I was listening this song, do you know why ? I never know :D

Soundtrack of the Day !

"Love Today"
Mika

Doom da da di da di Doom da da di da di

Everybody's gonna love today,
Gonna love today, gonna love today.
Everybody's gonna love today, gonna love today.
Anyway you want to, anyway you've got to,
Love love me, love love me, love love.

I've been crying for so long,
Fighting tears just to carry on,
But now, but now, it's gone away.

Hey girl why can't you carry on,
Is it 'cause you're just like your mother,
A little tight, like to tease for fun,
Well you ain't gonna tease no other,
Gonna make you a lover.

Everybody's gonna love today,
love today, love today.
Everybody's gonna love today,
Anyway you want to, anyway you've got to,
Love love me, love love me, love love.
Girl in the blue with the big bust on,
Big bust on, big bust on.
Wait till your mother and your papa's gone,
Papa's gone
Momma, momma papa, shock shock me,
Shock shock me, shock shock.

Everybody's gonna love today,
Gonna love today, gonna love today
I said,
Everybody's gonna love today, gonna love today,
Anyway you want to, anyway you've got to,
Love love me, love love me, love love.

Carolina sits on ninety five
Give her a dollar and she'll make you smile.

Hook her, book her, nook her, walk away!

Girl dresses like a kid for fun,
Licks her lips like they're something other,
Tries to tell you life has just begun,
But you know she's getting something other
Than the love from her mother

Everybody's gonna love today,
Love today, love today
Everybody's gonna love today,
Anyway you want to, anyway you've got to,
Love love me, love love me, love love.

Girl in the blue with the big bust on,
Big bust on, big bust on.
Wait till your mother and your papa's gone,
Papa's gone
Momma, momma papa, shock shock me,
Shock shock me, shock shock.

I said,
Everybody's gonna love today,
Gonna love today, gonna love today
I said,
Everybody's gonna love today,
Gonna love today,
Anyway you want to, anyway you've got to,
Love love me, love love me, love love.

Doom da da di da di Doom da da di da di Doom da da di da di Doom da da di da di.....

Everybody's gonna love today,
Gonna love today, gonna love today
Everybody's gonna love today,
Gonna love today,
Anyway you want to, anyway you've got to,
Love love me, love love me, love love.

Doom da da di da di Doom da da di da di Doom da da di da di Doom da da di da di.....

Soundtrack of the Day !

"Right To Be Wrong"
Joss Stone

I've got a right to be wrong
My mistakes will make me strong
I'm stepping out into the great unknown
I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
I've got a mind of my own
I'm flesh and blood to the bone
I'm not made of stone
Got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

I've got a right to be wrong
I've been held down too long
I've got to break free
So I can finally breathe
I've got a right to be wrong
Got to sing my own song
I might be singing out of key
But it sure feels good to me
Got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

You're entitled to your opinion
But it's really my decision
I can't turn back I'm on a mission
If you care don't you dare blur my vision
Let me be all that I can be
Don't smother me with negativity
Whatever's out there waiting for me
I'm going to faced it willingly

I've got a right to be wrong
My mistakes will make me strong
I'm stepping out into the great unknown
I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
I've got a mind of my own
Flesh and blood to the bone
See, I'm not made of stone
I've got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone

I've got a right to be wrong
I've been held down to long
I've got to break free
So I can finally breathe
I've got a right to be wrong
Got to sing my own song
I might be singing out of key
But it sure feels good to me
I've got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone